What can you tell from this picture? What can you see from this picture?..Is it pain?Is it lost?Is it isolation?...To me, Its all of it...A picture paints a thousand words...but how I feel, no matter how many pictures I painted, no matter how many dark colours I use...it will never match up to how I really feel

Someone tell me...what am I doing here?

Someone tell me...what did I do to deserve living?

What exactly am I doing here?I dont know where to go..I dont know who to turn to...Life is so wrong. What is the purpose of life to me? I dont have anything here on earth...People you thought you could trust betrays you...people you thought you could run to, runs away from you...Leaving you standing there all alone...Wondering where everyone is hiding...

Yes..Maybe people see me as the happy girl in school..Yes..Maybe people see me as being the funny person...Yes...Maybe people see me as the girl whose not afraid to do crazy things...But had anyone for once tried to look inside me? Had anyone ever tried even for once to understand what is that I am trying to show?I am sick of not being understood...

Am I really a strong girl? All those advice I gave them, Do i ever once even listen to my own advice?Why can I be strong for others..but I cant be strong for myself? Why cant I for once tell myself "everything is going to be alright" ??..........Because I know everything isnt..By day, I can hold on to the pain, by night...I just cant..And I just cry...At night, I cry silently in the dark..at night I wish to die..at night..I want to run away......because that is the time when I felt like I was meant to be like this...Staring at the space, I dont know what made me feel like shit..I dont know what made me feel like a failure. Bull shit to those who said "tomorrow will always be a brighter day" ..bull shit to my advice for my friends..Nothing will get better!Not for me... Life is nothing but pain...and it will kill you slowly...silently in the dark..No one to run to, No one to turn to...Theres no body in the world that could help me...